Damnit~ I wont be meeting my babee at the airport cos of my stoopid timetable this semester.T.T I have night classes on the day he's flying back. It's such a bummer. Im so tempted to miss those night classes cos it's just lectures. T.T But oh well... no choice but to go. *sigh* This semester really sucks.

Oh well... anyway... I met up with some erm... can I call em old friends? But yea... I consider em friends. I also met new friends. ^^ I like going to Amcorp cos of that. You tend to met people. ^^ Erik works in a cybercafe there... and basically how we all knew each other is a long story. Erik kinda befriended me on Friendster and later from his network of friends, I got to know a few since they frequent the cybercafe.

So yea... there's Nick, Vincent, Erik, Alfred ( my "lil bro") his gf Cheryl, her sister Jolene, erm..new friend, Mark and David... so yea... Amcorp Mall is a place where everyone knows your name... just like Cheers...lol...cept this is a place where most kids hang out and play online games. :P

It's a little weird hanging out with people who's younger ( Nick and Vincent) but yet, you dont really realize the age gap as long as you have something in common. ^^ We all like anime... and it's just comes to a point where sometimes randomness is very common there. I dunno... I treat Nick and Vincent like my lil brothers too... well...kinda. And they just enjoy calling me "che che" So I guess it's fine. :P I just have fun hanging out with everyone at the CC even though we dont do much but sit around and chat. :P

This is another reason why I want Danny to meet em. I mean, they may not be my closest friends, but they're people that I want him to meet. Cos they're fun. The only thing Im worried is, he would find it boring and not enjoy being there. ( cos usually I hang out there for hours) Just yesterday I told Danny about it and he seemed okay with meeting them. I guess that's a good sign. ^^ He told me as long as there's a PC, he's fine. T.T The whole point of going there is to meet up with people...-.-" But nevermind, this is considered okay cos he's willing to spend a few hours there.

I just hope that they dont relocate cos or else Amcorp would then be the most boring-est ( no such word...but what the heck) place on earth. :P So yes... a big shout out to the people at Supreme Net Cafe. ^^ May it always be a fun place to hang out.

Today's a thursday~~~~ *chants* WeeEEeeEEee... in 3 days, it'll be a new week... and in that new week, Danny would be home~ I cant wait. I can see myself waiting anxiously at the arrival hall for him. When I catch a glimpse of him, my heart beats faster. I see him smiling as he walks through the door. Everyone greets him. I on the other hand wont be able to control my happiness. ^^ I would give him a nice lonnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggg hug. Hehe... yes, prolly that's what I'll be doing.

I wonder, during the period of time that he'll be home... I wonder how would we spend that time? Most likely it'll be going out for supper with friends, going out for a movie with friends and just hang out with friends. ^^ I find it easier to go out when Danny's around. I really miss him... and his smile too. It's been a long time, really. And Im glad that time passes by so quickly now.

I really want to travel with Danny. It would be so fun. Ive talked to him about it and he did say that it was ok... but we have to see my timetable before we can proceed to make any plans. :P So yes... I really want next week to come... I want him home. ^^ I MISS YOU, BABEEE~~~~

Yes, due for an update. -.-" My babee was asking me on why I havent update, the reason : Nothing much to talk bout. Cos all this time the only thing Ive been saying is he's coming home. :P Which he is next week. I wonder why he chose to come home on the 5th or 6th and NOT earlier. :( Packing is not really that hard to do since he's on holZ. ( but if for me might be a different story. :P )

So yea, classes have been fine lately although law is giving me a headache. Why you ask? Cos basically there are so many types and I have to memorize em all...T.T I think Im going insane over Exhibit Design too. The lecturer is a nut case. I dont understand a damn word he's saying. -.-" Cos to me, they're all irrelevant explaination to his subjects. Gawsh~

Anyway... I went to Giant with Steph today. She did grocery shopping for the house just to last us through the week cos usually Danny's parents does the grocery shopping on the weekend. ^^ We got loadsa freebies~ WeeEEEee..I love freebies...^^ Who doesnt? Well, cos we got 2 x 1 liter peel fresh orange juices...we got this one bottle free... and I decided to pick the color orange cos Danny likes orange~ ^^ And then the dude even gave us more freebies... *beems* We got a deodrant ( okay, maybe not the best freebie but...it's still FREE!) a shower foam, 1 free packet of rice (O_o?) A free plate which usually comes with the purchase of toothpaste. (O_o") And erm... we got mini beach balls too. ^^ I love freebies~

So yea...anyway... tomoro is the BIRD DAY of the HAWK. ^^ HAPPY EARLY BIRD DAY HAWK!!! Stef ( my friend that you've met) wishes you a happy nudity day too... ^^ Ive already celebrated his bday with him last Saturday cos the bird here didnt know what was planned for him. He thought it was just me taking him out to dinner when in fact it was suppose to be me, joel and Jing. But all plans were scraped when jing couldnt make it...leaving only me and Joel. Oh well... it wasnt too bad anyway... we had a lovey quiet ( and expensive) dinner, and erm.. CAKE! Sorry, duck... no more cake... someone found it and ate it all..and it wasnt me. >_<

I LOVE baskin robbin ice cream and their ice cream cakes....MmmMMM.... LOVE EM to bits! I Love em even more than Hagen Dazz... :P Baskin Robbins ROCK~ *hint hint* But yea... it was fun. Did I mention that Joel actually paid half price for the cake?! Woohoo~~~ Talk about lucky day. ^^ So yes... it was fun. I like organizing stuff like this. :D Hawk was happy... werent you hawk?!

So... this was what I did over the weekend... gosh... it feels so long ago...-.-" Life's great when you have good friends to share it with. Too bad my babee isnt around to share that time with me. :S But... he WILL BE BACK! And sadly we wont celebrate our bday together next year. :( He'll be in aussie. -.-" I noticed that year after year, the grand bdays have now become small quiet dinner with friends... is that a good thing? Well... I'll leave that to you to decide. ^^

Omg... Ive seriously been cutting classes again and when I said I wasnt gonna cut anymore classes. I cant help it. I just feel so heavy everytime the thought of travelling and attending classes till late at night comes to mind. But tomoro Im gonna haul my lazy ass back to class. I NEED to start attending them, no matter how boring it is. T.T

My babee is coming home soon. When....? I havent got a clue. Apparently he told me that he could make it home before the results are posted. I really wish he does come home sooner. I think this long distance relationship thing is taking it'll toll... Ive counted like 3 major arguements and prolly 4 lil ones. -.-" I know sometimes arguements are meant to bring you closer, which I admit has brought us a little closer to each other... but half the time I feel as though Im in denial... as if the whole outburst didnt happen. Is that wrong?

But anyway, that's not the story. The story is, my babee is finally coming home. ^___^ Back to our mamak-ing sessions and our weekend outings...wEEEEE~!!! I kinda miss it cos Im so lazy to drive myself around. It's kinda weird to actually go out alone. I never liked it cos Im so used to having peoples opinions when I try out something new or someone to talk to when I just need to talk. :P Life this year has seriously been a rocky one. :S

So well yea... I cant wait till he gets home. ^^ Then I wont feel so alone anymore. Its nice to have someone to love. I actually cant really imagine life without Danny now cos Im so used to being with him and having him around to talk to. It'll be hard to go back to being single. Plus, I dont want to. I want him as my life partner. He's the one person whom Im truly madly and deeply in love with. ( yes, that's a song title too. :P )

So, I shall end this entry by saying...I WILL BEAT THE PROCRASTINATION BUG~ I shall squish it underneath my feet...Bwahahahahhahaah *evil laugh* *cough* Erm...okay... enough of that... Oh, another note...Danny's parents are gonna be away for 4 days. And I'll be alone at home...T.T Technically I wouldnt be...but since Gary's joining them and Andy's never home, plus Steph is working night shifts.... IM ALONE!!! Gawd...I hate being alone.... okay then. ^^ Till my next boring entry. :D

My babee has done something to make me realize how much he really means it when he said he loves me. Just the other day he and I had an arguement over a small matter. I felt like he didnt understand me at that moment. But the next day I apologized to him but he didnt reply. I thought maybe the best thing was to just take a break cos we were both stressed out with our own individual needs.

Later that day I was out with Steph just shopping for stuff. A few message flooded my inbox and I noticed they were all from Danny. He freaked when I said I wanted a break. He thought I meant I wanted a break up and he wrote that he never wanted to break up with me. There was more but I cant remember it exactly. Those words really touched my heart, and now everything is ok between us again.

Sometimes people do the stupidest things. And with the people you love, no matter how much they did you hurt you unintentionally, you'd always forgive them right from the start. I love my babee very much... and I will always love him for as long as he'll have me.

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So far, my classes have been fine. But the workload is already coming in quick and Im beggining to feel the pressure. Ive also been thinking a lot lately about my relationship. Danny's about to come home soon, yet I feel this tension between us. I want him home sooner... but he insists on waiting for his results there. I understand why he wanna do that... but sometimes it just makes me wonder about certain things.

I think about him everyday... and my heart lights up whenever he's online. But it grows dim each time he has to go elsewhere or he's doing something. Im not saying he shouldnt, but lately, I dont feel like Ive gotten enough attention from him. I know he's busy with work and all... but I havent really talked to him properly in days. The only thing we say to each other is " How was your day?" and prolly " What did you have for lunch/dinner?"

Are we losing our sparks? It's really hard to go on each day as if there's nothing wrong... I just really want him home.

I just heard the news that Christopher Reeve is dead. My baby broke the news to me and Im still shocked. I cant say that I was a massive fan... but I did like his movies... especially Superman. Who doesnt? Omg... Im feeling really sad now. I can never quite accept the news of dead, be it the news of someone dear to me, or someone whom I barely know. It is such a tragedy as I thought he was doing quite well. He had a heart failure and he was only 52. :(

Sometimes I wonder if it's the act of GoD. Like, it's his way of saying " the end is near and Im now taking back those who've suffered enough and cleanse their soul" I mean, the recent happenings are all signs. I've once watched this show during church service and it was about GoD taking back those who deserved it. I think it was called " Left Behind." I just cant help but just think. The week hasnt been kind to me... and I guess I'll sign off before anything else bad happens. :(

Last night we ( the family) went out to dinner at Bangsar with Danny's dad's boss and his kids. The engineer from Norway and his wife also came along. We ate at this German restaurant called House Frankfurt and we had a fun time there since the boss's son, Simon ( pronounced as see mon or siemen...:D) was sitting with Gary, Andy and me. Simon is only an 11 year old boy and his sister Leela ( I think that's the spelling) is 16.

It was truly a fun time and a great chance to meet up with some new people. Today they're going to Sepang circuit to watch the Motor racing and then tomoro they'll be flying off to Pangkor Island. They're leaving on Thursday night. I cant believe that they've already been here for 2 weeks. It seemed as if they had just arrive not long ago.

I do hope that they come down again next year. :) It would be fun to meet up with them again. Oh, we also met the owner of Hard Rock Cafe at Bangsar while on the way to Coffee Bean for well...coffee. :P

Joke of the Day

Andy : So Simon... did you see any animal you liked in the zoo?

Simon : Yes, I liked the monkeys.

Andy : Did you see the orangutans?

Simon : Yes *does the impression of an orangutan*

Andy : Did you know...*points to Gary* that he's the orangutan's brother?

*Simon had a huge grin on his face*

Gary : *tells Andy* I MAY be the orangutan's brother... but you're the orangutan.

I close my eyes and dream a dream,
A dream so far away it seem,
A dream where people laugh and play,
A dream where the day never fades away,

A dream so near and yet so far,
A dream that leaves no battle scar,
A dream where people understand,
A dream where no one owns a land,

A dream of happiness and bliss,
A dream so close that it's hard to miss,
A dream that can soon be reality,
But a dream for now for eternity.

I learnt something new today... :D My babee taught me to make my very own forum banner! And a few other stuffs too. Well, I guess Im not exactly the brightest lightbulb, but hey, at least Ive made an effort to learn, right? The sad part was...WHY didnt I have this motivation during my holidays? Well, prolly is cos I just wanted to laze around and not THINK of anything which reminded me of college or assignments. Anyway... tomoro would be my first class. I do hope everything goes well...and I do hope I MAKE IT for class. Cos half the time I'll be thinking, " Yea! I will attend class today!" But come tomoro, I'll be " Nevermind... I'll make it for the next class."

I tend to be super lazy... and I procrastinate alot... GAH! I have to learn mass media law and marketing and packaging design! T.T My babee told me that packaging design should be fun. I just hope I dont slack off... and I do hope I actually bond with my lecturers a little this semester. It's my fifth semester and Ive got one more semester to go. I cant believe Im going to graduate soon! O_O Come MAY, I'll be holding a diploma in Graphic Design which I dont think would even mean anything to me. :S I just hope that I'll have some friends for graduation... or else, what's the point in going? Although, the idea of wearing the robe is interesting. :) Though it'll be expensive....*sigh*

I was talking to my babee when suddenly the power got cut off at 12:35 am last night. I freaked out! For starters... Im not too keen of the dark. I was trying not to panic as I sat in my chair. I wanted to tell my babee that there was a power failure but my phone was due for a reload. T.T It had to happen at a time like this... :S

After being frozen to the chair for about 3 minutes, I decided to be brave and felt my way around the room. I remembered I had this mini flash light but alas, it was no use cos it wasnt bright enough. -.-" I slowly crept outside my room, feeling scared. Just a few days ago was that incident of the man at the window... so the first thing I thought was there was a robbery going on. I was really freaking out a little. I paced around upstairs, trying my best to be quiet and to listen out for any 'unwanted' sounds.

Then I realized that no one else was home with me cos Gary's room door was open. I assumed he went out with Steph way before the power failure. Then I looked towards Danny's parents room. The door was closed indicating there was someone home...his dad I presume cos his mom was away. I decided not to wake him cos it was late and I thought the power might just come back on in a jiffy. I remembered about Gary's more powerful torchlight and decided to once again feel my way into his room to get it. Thank gawd we live next to the main road and that we had a source of light even though there was a blackout.

I decided to wake Danny's dad up to see if he could do something about the power failure....like check the power box. I would do it myself if I knew where and how to fix it. :S So, when I woke him up and told him bout the power failure, he then told me that he most prolly affected the whole area cos it was kinda dark. So in the end we lit up some old lamps and somehow it felt as though we were back in the old ages...only with indoor plumbing. So, after the long ( it was long for me) fifteen minutes wait, the power miraculously came back on.

I then quickly came online to talk to Danny for I knew he was worried sick. Like I said, bad time for my phone to need a reload. :S I was a little scared through the ordeal cos it was just his dad and me home, and cos of the past incidents. But at least now I wont jump to conclusions so easily. But honestly, it wouldnt hurt to be a little safe, right? To me, the light is my sense of security. I used to be okay with the dark, but after what has been happening, I dont feel safe anymore...especially when Danny isnt around... I just feel more vulnerable.

So in conclusion to all of this... I hate blackouts.

Somehow I dunno how all these songs went forgotten in my mind for so long. :D I recently downloaded a few songs which I really love... and they're really old too... wayyyyy before I was born. :D It's of the likes of Frank Sinatra, Elvis and Richie Valens.

I first fell in love with Richie Valens's music when I watched a movie based on his life. It was just so sad that he died that young. I can honestly tell you Im not really a huge fan of their music, but I do appreciate good music. :) As for Frank Sinatra and Elvis, my dad used to sing their songs when I was younger. :) So I guess that's how the song stuck.

I did find some other nice 'current' songs such as " Dance with my father" by Luther Vandross. That song just gets me close to tears. I also found some songs by the Eagles such as " Love will keep us alive" & " Hotel California". It just feels so good to find all these music and then listen to them. Brings back some memories that I thought I lost.

Sometimes when I hear some of these songs, I feel my heart being moved. Danny once asked, why do I like listening to sad songs? I dunno... to me it's kinda soothing and nice. I mean, not that I dont enjoy some catchy up tempo songs, but I still think sad and slow songs are the best. :) It just really comforts me sometimes, just to hear those words. Im a sentimentalist, I guess. I like listening to songs which makes me feel it. And I like listening to a song which helps me cos Im relating to it.

Im a real softy, I guess. :D You may think this is corny, cheesey or just plain lame... but I do like to dedicate certain songs to my special someone. It's like, whenever I think of those songs, they just remind me of all the great times... and of course, the future. Most of my songs now relate to Danny... cos I think of him alot, I guess. Every tune just reminds me of him sometimes and it just gets me thinking. Anything that'll give me inspiration, I'm willing to try. :D