Honestly, I think the whole world is going under. Firstly, we heard about snatch thefts, rape and all sorts of evil doings. Next, there was this incident with the water meter man ( which in the end turned out to be REAL water meter men coming to change the water meter ) and now this?!

It was about 8 pm when we started on dinner. Danny's dad was out with a client where as Gary had joined them for a round of golf. It was only Stephanie, Danny's mom and me who started eating cos Gary was going to be a little late for dinner.

I think Gary just got home, and Steph then pointed out there was this really freaky guy standing outside out kitchen window peering in. The way Steph described him was kinda suspicious looking cos he was hiding behind the wall divider and stealing glances into the house, thinking that no one would spot him. This really freaked me out. It was something like a back lane which no one usually takes, especially not at night!

Steph said he was prolly an indian and in his early 20's. It really scared me. To me, there are many possibilities on why he maybe peering in. It could be he's observing the house to see if there are any valuables... or stuff like that. He could even be some pervert. It is really nerve wreaking to know these people are getting bolder and bolder. I can honestly say I dont feel safe in my own home anymore.

Steph did suggest we get another ferocious looking dog to guard the house. I think it may be good too, since technically we only have 2 dogs... not including Nikki cos she's too small to guard any home but her own. -.-" I really dont feel safe anymore and yet I have to start attending classes starting next week. I dont dare walk out of the house for fear of snatch thieves nor do I enjoy being alone at home sometimes.

Danny has suggested for me to be with someone at all times, which of course Im trying to do. I never really liked being alone anywhere... and sometimes I wished that Danny was back home. But I know he has a duty to complete his studies. Im trying my best not to let this get the best of me and I know that Im safe in this home. But till someone does something to prevent anymore mishaps from happening, no one is safe from anything.

This is my last week of freedom... I'll start college on Monday and I dont wanna imagine the long hours or assignments and class. All I can truly think about is when I graduate. I dont think my babee will make it for my graduation cos Im graduating a month ( or two) ahead of him. Heck, I dont think anyone is gonna make it for my graduation. :S But anyway, speaking of graduation, I really hope to make it for Danny's one. It's also a great way to visit another country seeing how Ive never stepped out of Malaysian soil. Okay, maybe there was the times where I went to Thailand...but that doesnt count.

So, I was discussing with Danny on how Im going to get to his graduation. Don't worry, I havent planned to rob any banks. :p I'm going to start saving for the trip. I know those who know me would say that it wouldnt work. Honestly, I think it would happen either cos of those extra costs that goes towards my college assignments. But anyway...I told him I would try. I am willing to sacrifice anything to be with him. He is the love of my life and I would do anything just to be with him. :)

So, Im planning to look for a job during my next holidays and at the same time save up for the trip. He did offer to pay for part of my flight, but I dont think I can let him do that cos I really feel guilty when I use his money or when he uses it on me. So I told him I wanna try to make it on my own. So for the next 8 months starting October, I'll be at home most of the time.

I wonder somehow, would I truly make it? It's really gonna be hard not being able to spend or to go out. :( But like I said, I would do anything for him. And this is one sacrifice Im willing to make. In a relationship you must learn to give and take... and to me, he has been so tolerant. I love him, with every breath... every heartbeat... and every waking moment. My heart will always belong to Danny Foo Mun Soon.

Bad things happen ever so now and then. How do you feel about migrating to places safer than Malaysia? Our country was once a democratic one, she protected us from all harm and all bad luck that tried to fall on our heads. She's cared for us our whole life being here but more and more evil has breached her walls. Criminals are getting bolder and safety shields are becoming thinner. These are main factors that really drive me up a ladder to escape it all. I'm not sure who's fault it is but soon enough, I think Malaysia might soon turn into a 2nd Indonesia. There won't be anymore Muhibah and no more multi-cultural celebration, it'll be just their own alone. I'm really sad and feeling down to hear about what's happening back home. It's becoming even harder to leave you alone now. However, till I guard you,my babee once again, all I can do is pray for your safety and pray nothing bad will come near you. I love you babee.. *holds onto you sharing warmth*

What is going on in the world that we're living in now? Everyday I read about the bombings of embassys, killing of innocent lives and also the hardships of others. What causes a man to be so desperate that he ends up stealing from another and doing just about anything to get what he wants?

Just today, two guys on a motorcycle came to the house. One left as soon as Gary went out of the house to check the commotion. The guy on the motor was ringing the doorbell like it was a toy. It was kinda rude and annoying. He kept insisting we needed to change our water meter and he produced some sort of carbon copied identification.

Gary, not buying that act for one second, told the guy he didnt know anything about it cos he was renting a place here... which obviously was a lie. Stephanie however let the dogs out of the house and the guy retreated a little. I guess the excitement of the dogs scared the guy a lil and he decided to leave.

This was all according to Stephanie and Gary cos I was upstairs talking to Danny when all this happened. Imagine that... these people are now so bold to even try to con you into letting them into your home. I'm feeling pretty afraid to be at home alone now seeing that anything can happen. Im feeling even worse cos I have to start college soon too.

Danny has asked me to carry a pepper spray around although I dont really see a point cos if the person attacks you, you wouldnt have time to even think of taking it out. You may think Im being a lil paranoid here... but when it comes to safety, I dont wanna risk anything.

So, my advice this time around...watch where you're going... be very aware of your surroundings... and never venture out alone if possible. It's best to prevent rather than to have an accident.

I just got home from 'mamak-ing' with some old friends. ^.^ It has truly been a while since I went out for a drink cos of how Ive been lately... car-less, cash-less and also time-less. >________<" But anyway...met up with Joel, Hawk, Raveen and Justin. It's fun catching up with old pals. ^___^
We had a great time talking about the past and the present and we each shared very funny stories. I just wished we had arrived there sooner so we could have talked more. But Joel took a wrong turning and ended up getting nearly lost on the way over here. >_________<" But anyway... we ended up going to Steven's Corner although we were meant to go to Nasi Kandar Penang ( NKP) in P.J New town aka State. I havent been to Steven's Corner, so it was an experience for me.

I really wished that all my friends would at least save a weekend each month so we can meet up and just catch up on old stuff. And I wished that we could all organize some gathering or a camp but everyone is busy and have different schedules... :(

But it was really great meeting up with them. ^_____________________^

I've been looking at mah babee's blog and realize that he's been having a fun time the past week. :D I'm glad that he enjoyed himself when Andy was around. Even though I didnt get to see him online that much, Im just happy that he's been getting out more instead of being at home all the time. ^.^

Apparently my babee is also gonna catch Alicia Keys. Too bad Im not there. :p Im not really a fan, but I guess I just wanna share the experience with him. :) So, I just hope he enjoys himself there with the rest of his friends. No funny business ar! >_________< Kekeke...

Well, still another 2 months till he returns... but I feel as though time hasnt really moved at all. -.-" I really wished that the gap would draw closer...but yet, I dont wanna go back to college... I havent truly 'felt' my holidays. T.T Either way... it comes as a good and bad thing. :S Another news that Ive heard but yet to be confirmed is that my dearest might come home a lil later than early December. That news kinda tore my heart cos I miss him SO much!

He said that CV might wanna visit more of Melbourne... and Im sure if he told his parents that, they'd want him to go with her for two reasons... Reason 1 : To explore melbourne and Reason 2 : Cos CV's a gal and she needs a guy to 'protect' her. -.-" I dont like the sound of reason 2... but it's kinda the truth... in a way..I guess.....

But anyway... he told me that the final decision is his to make. Im kinda torn right now cos I really want him to explore...since he's there... yet... I cant stand being apart any longer. I miss him like crazy! So yes... do I become the selfish girlfriend... or the ' go... explore...I set you free' girlfriend? Decisions... oh well... like I said... in the end it's his choice...

*sigh* I guess if I were there with him, this decision wouldnt really be so hard to make... cos I would gladly go exploring with him. :D I mean, I havent been out of the country... so if I had the chance, why not? He did once say that he'll take me with him... although that 'dream' has yet to come true. Xp Oh well... I guess right now the only thing I CAN do is dream....

Yesh, he's back and he comes bearing gifts..ekekek...well, not really... but I did ask Danny to pass me something through him... so that counts, right? Well, anyway... I received my two audio cds courtesy of mah babee.^__^

Well, Danny did the sweetest thing... he recorded his message into my cd. ^_______^ It made me cry though. Cos, well... I dunno... I guess cos it's been a while since Ive actually heard his voice. So that was nice. :) Another sweet thing he did was he sang me a song. ^______^ That made me cry summore...T.T It's these thoughtful gestures that really gets me going. Honestly, Danny isnt really that romantic... but when he is... I guess that's a time to really appreaciate what he does.

I love him even more now and this somehow assures me that he is the man that I wanna be with for the rest of my life. I LOVE YOU, DANNY!!!! Oh yes, not to forget... I also got a shell bracelet and chocolates~~~!!! Gawd, Im turning into a real sweet tooth. T.T Counting down the days till he is by my side again...*sigh*

Is it a crime to want to feel selfish sometimes? Even if it's for a good cause? I know many would think being selfish is nothing good... but what if it's to protect the interest of someone?

Ive been thinking lately... and Ive realized a lot of people have made many sacrafices for me. Its not easy to just throw a dream away for just someone elses sake. To me, I know sacrafices have to be made sometimes... but how much is too much?

Why do some people tend to make the wrong choices and live to regret them in the coming years? Ive been kinda indecisive about certain things... and also certain people... but for me, Ive come to acknowledge my choices and learn to accept them whether right or wrong, good or bad.

Anyway, here's a list of songs that Im currently listening to:

Deeply in Love - Hillsongs ( Youth Alive! )
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessionals
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
Everytime - Britney Spears
Like a Rose - A1
Dont get lost in a crowd - Ashley Ballard
I love the way you love me - Boyzone

There are more...but apparently my beloved brother did something to my playlist...and now I cant find it...-.-" Well... that'a about all my random babbling can go.... till next time...

Well, what can I say. Hmm.. *thinks* Okies, my snoockie just fell ill and feeling really bad for not being around to offer her a hug. This is also my first time blogging partially on her behalf as she's worried the computer just hates her and might restart itself. *grin* That is why you see most women use Macintoshes. LoL! Maybe Bill Gates doesn't really like women. *jeng jeng jeng*

I'm quite swarmed with assignments but being a Friday night, I'm gonna kick off my shoes and take a break from any work. Besides, the weekend is going to be another busy one for me. Do you think I should blog here once in awhile? LoL! Oh yeah.. I love my snoockie very much so I'll snuggle up to her when I'm back in Malaysia later. Wheeee!

It's been long since I've last updated. But anyway, the first honors goes to my childhood friend, Sarah Bessey. She just recently got married to a Mr. Steven Andrew Meyers. I dunno much about the details cos I was shocked myself when I read about it in her letter to me. But Im really happy that she has found her prince. :) He's one lucky guy...ekekeke....

Next update would be Im sick. Ive caught the flu bug and also a nasty sore throat and cough. I feel so miserable and tired. Worst even, I had an exam today and I was sniffing and coughing the whole time I was in the exam hall. It was so bad till I felt like I didnt want to continue with the paper. I left about half an hour before the actual end time for the exam.

I came home feeling really bad cos the flu and cough got even worse. My throat itched and I was craving for murtabak, roti canai, more kangkung belacan ( which I think was the cause of my sore throat) and ICE CREAM! The more I cant have it, I want it....T_________T Danny told me to stay away from fried and food doused in oil... but I cant help it! I really really want roti canai. I havent had it in weeks...or prolly even months...well, think it has only been weeks.

So yesh... Im feeling absolutely sickly now... Gawd I miss those food....*cries*

The crime rates have been rising lately and to prove that, just recently around my area two people got robbed. It has happened before and the cops arent doing a thing about it. The recent cases involved Danny's aunt and also another woman around the area.

Can you believe it? Danny's aunt got robbed right in front of Danny's grandpa's home! This is seriously insane... we are all not safe anywhere anymore! We've asked Aunty Keng whether she has made a police report, but she just shook her head stating even if she did, the police isnt gonna give a damn about it. Read Danny's blog and you'll understand. This only happened just a few days ago...

I really dunno what the world is coming to... why do people resort to stealing? or robbing others? *sigh* This is a sad sad world we're living in. Danny's mom is suggesting we write to the police or call em to do some patrolling around the area to fight these snatch thefts. But till anything is done, we can only hope that non of the snatch theft ends with someone being injured or that it happens to anyone dear to us. Till then....

Only 2 months ago there was news of death in the family. And just 2 days ago, we received another news of death. According to the doctors, Sue's dad passed away due to a massive heart attack. It was shocking to me cos I've seen her dad and he was really healthy looking. Even though I didnt know him as well as Danny's family did, I still felt the loss.

Many people came to pay their respects yesterday and I saw a few of Danny's old friends. Well, at least those are what Aunty Foo told me. I really admire the family's strength because we all know how hard it is to lose someone close and dear. Especially when that person wasnt due to die so young. It was so sudden and definitely really shocking.

Sometimes it just feels so hard to move on, yet you have no choice but to do so. Life is just too short to throw anything away. This is one reason why you shouldnt take the people around you for granted. It's cos you may never know when the time is up.

I just hope that the Teoh family is doing okay and that they continue to have the strength to move on. Once again, my condolences.